Drugs, please make this go away...

[Pharmacist J]

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I started outside the circle,
so desperate to belong.
And soon I was accepted,
but it's a fantasy gone wrong.
I say they make me happy,
and they do, for a bit,
But once I leave reality,
I need a second hit.

Pills bring happiness,
Or so it seems,
But right now i've only found sadness,
My life is like a bunch of horrible movie scenes,
Where the star always dies,
But unfortunately for me, I am the star... or atleast in my dreams...
Where i find myself mixed up in pills, alcohol and sex.

I wake up every morning,
And last nite's on my mind,
I think, "what will today bring"?
But as i do I find....
That no matter how I deny it,
The truth is here to stay.
A chemical depression
that may never go away.

It's like a rollercoaster,
at first I feel so high.
But what comes up must come down,
and when it does I die.
Inside I die a terrible death,
my mind is so confused.
And once I reach this lonely place,
I know i'm sure to lose.

So I take some more the next time,
almost searching for myself,
But soon I need two more or three,
it's the only thing to help!
I look at all my friends now,
and see how they've become,
But I cannot see that I'm the same,
Alas, the drugs have won.

This battle rages onwards,
this war will never end.
For now my only freedom,
comes from the drugs on which I so depend.
But this is not real freedom,
their grip has taken hold.
The first thing on my mind now,
is the last deal that I sold.

It's so hard to escape now,
it's a whole world in itself,
I try to find an exit,
but the only thing to help,
Is another four or five pain killers,
so the pain will go away.
But once I start I can't stop
Drugs, please make this go away.

? Pharmacist J
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[Ryan7]

 :) You have the best poetry i have ever read, other  poets talk about fantisy, but yours compares drugs to a fantisy world that is really reality. =D good job. :)